New Years Eve was phenomenal.
It was the day I got to say my final words of consequence to my grandfather. He's rapidly slipping away and it's not easy to watch. As I headed into his bedroom, fear washed over me. What if this conversation, the time I'd been so eager to have with him, was nothing to be remembered? What if the amazing conversations everyone else had with my grandfather didn't happen for me? As I sat down with him and held his hand we bantered about relatively meaningless things, but then the mood changed and I finally got the chance to tell my grandfather just how much he really means to me. He's the only grandfather I've ever had and the best and only one I would ever want. He is the most loving, accepting and generous man I have ever know. I got to tell him that. We cried together, hugged each other, exchanged views of living your life and not others for them. I loved every moment and I feel so blessed I was granted those last one on one moments with him. I feel that I will always remember those minutes when I cried in my grandfather's arms, hyperventilating as I have been so often lately, just expressing my love for him in a way I've never been able to before.
After my emotional afternoon at the Mundt's I was picked up from work by Ellen, my little angel who's been so helpful after the red Honda finally broke down. I mean literally the engine cracked in half. Haha. Somewhat comical I think. Ellen, Taylor and I proceeded to go to Byerly's to get fixings for tacos, one of my favorite foods. We all met at Taylor's, made tacos, took silly pictures and headed down to the U. I felt so great as we drove down University. Man I love that place.
We first stopped at Sigma Nu, which as promised was classy and quaint. Perfect if you loves all those boys as I do, not so perfect if you don't know anyone like my girls from home. I completely understood and offered to go to SAE instead because it promised to have basically everyone who's graduated from our high school in the past 3 years and loud music. What more could you want? So we stopped at Beta on the way over to pick up Carl and Chad and made our way towards the golden lions.
The party was fabulous, jammed from wall to wall with familiar faces of my past. I thoroughly enjoyed myself. The party was great and the girls were loving it. I felt like my night was incomplete, however, until like in a fairytale, my eyes met a certain somebody's from across the room and immediately a smirk came across my face and I knew what was coming. As he moved towards me, I mentioned to Ellen that he was coming and she immediately understood my excitement. The conversation was great, and a few minutes in he told me he had never gotten his midnight kiss which of course, I couldn't allow... So the evening ended splendidly with a great kiss, lots of compliments and a date to boot. Who knows what will happen, maybe nothing but regardless, the night was great. I love my girlfriends, guy friends and family.... That's all I could ever want.
I'm thankful for every part of life today. There are so many trials we must face in this life, but there is always a lesson. This is part of my conversation with my grandfather. I told him that although the past few months have been painstaking, one look at our family says it all. We have truly rallied around each other finally able to appreciate how blessed we are to have such a great support network. My selfishness has been splashed in my face and for the first time in my life I feel like i finally get that many things are so much more important than me. Seems pretty obvious right? Well it's a lesson that's a lot harder to learn than you might think. So though times can often be hard, they are always good.
All for now and love as usual,
Kate
Here's to a fresh start.
